Actually that's a fib, a few tears are plopping onto my generic hotel duvet.
It's probably exhaustion, but at the moment, it feels like catharsis. Relief.
Long term readers will know that I've been to every Labour conference since 2009 with the sole aim of telling ministers and MPs about the horrors of the WCA. Lately, the Tories have given me abolishing DLA, the ILF, the SDP and so much more to explain and expose. I've chased Steven Timms when I could barely walk. I've charmed and flirted and wangled my way in front of Yvette Cooper, Jonathan Shaw, David Miliband, Peter Mandleson, Ed Miliband, Anne Begg, Margaret Curran, Jim Murphy, Michael Meacher, Liam Byrne, Anne MacGuire and no doubt countless others I've forgotten.
Oh the disappointments. 2009 when I may as well have been whistling in the wind. Not one responded to my follow up emails.
2010 and the "Responsibility at the top and the bottom" disappointments
2011 and the "I met a man who met a man" disasters resulting in the word "disability" being totally airbrushed from conference. Well, until Kali and I handbagged Ed Miliband in a daring expose....
And now it's 2012. In one year, campaigners produced the Spartacus Report, the most read welfare report in history. We defeated the Conservatives in the Lords 8 times over the Welfare Reform Bill, we worked with the BMA to ensure that they voted to scrap the Work Capability Assessment. We watched and respected and revelled in the Paralympics whilst organising devastatingly effective protests throughout, shining a light on Atos Healthcare who administer the test. We worked with journalists to ensure that our campaigns were regularly on Channel 4 News, and in the Guardian, the Mirror, the Independent, The Times - hell, even the Spectator. We guided and advised Panorama and Dispatches as they exposed the horrors of our situation to ever wider audiences.
There was more - so much more - and this year, disability and the attacks we face are front and centre at Labour conference.
First the man from Bournemouth CLP who brilliantly pointed out that "Disabled people are to Cameron what single parents were to Thatcher.
In every list of Tory disasters, speakers made sure sick and disabled people were there. At last
In every commentary, journalists made sure we were there. Here's La Toynbee this morning :
"Watch that party [the Conservatives] writhe as One Nation Labour encapsulates everything divisive they do, from Cameron's tax bonus for millionaires to his cruellest cuts for the disabled......
An MP tells of the mother with cerebral palsy twins in her surgery this week losing disability benefits."
And even Ed, leader of the party, made sure we were there :
"You can’t be a One Nation Prime Minister if all you do is seek to divide the country. Divide the country between north and south. Public and private. Those who can work and those who can’t work"
"You see I think it is incredibly important that to be One Nation we must show compassion and support for all those who cannot work. Particularly the disabled men and women of our country."
Please, I know politics is a strange, unfathomable game, but leaders make their once-a-year conference speeches in broad strokes. They are there to make the complicated clear, to laud the big beasts of the NHS, Education, the Economy or Housing. When disability makes it into a leaders speech, we can safely say we've broken through.
This year, when I zoom after Jon Cruddas on my scooter or catch up with Michael Meacher at a conference stand, there is recognition, understanding, concern, where other years there was discomfort and a shifty eagerness to escape.
We shone a light my friends, and now, no-one can turn it off.
Sure, there is more to do, so much more to do, but I say to anyone who will listen "There are 650 men and women in this country who get to choose. They decide all of our futures. I just need 326 of them."
No matter what we did, we had to break the consensus. We had to make sure that the opposition opposed. Just two years ago we had nothing and no-one. Today, we have a very different board to play on. Many will say it is not enough, and of course, they are right. But as a friend once said to me, "Don't judge on where someone is, judge on how far they travelled"
We have travelled a long, long, way this year. May every year see the same progress.
Here are some links from Labour this year that you may have missed.
Liam Byrne's Beveridge 2 speech:
Making Rights A reality - the new discussion paper that will be taken out around the country - and online - in order that Labour might form disability policy with all disabled people.
Here's Byrne in the Guardian finally accepting that WCAs are not working
Here's Anne Begg speaking at a parliamentary debate on Atos, called by Tom Greatrex